The Life Of A Loner

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I shared something really deep on my Instagram yesterday which I like to add here too as it takes an important role for my journey as well know it will help many of you. I recommend to read through the comments there as well as so many beautiful souls speak about their own experiences ad I'm sure you can find the one or other soulmate 🖤

Was supposed to make a new small boobs confidence boost post but decided to write about another topic and something I didn’t speak about before yet. I’m sure many of you can relate so let me start right away with an example: 

You get invited to a party but just don’t feel like going for it, rather staying in bed with Netflix & video games just being one with yourself 💜 And if you don’t get invited as you tell yourself you don’t have any friends, ask yourself would you still go to the party? Because if there’s an event or whatever where you truly want to go then you’d go on your own. 

Interacting with people, socializing and speaking is difficult to you. It’s just not that easy. Now believe me or not as much self confidence as I have within myself I am also very shy and insecure when it comes to socializing. A friend was talking about that the other day then gave her my personal advice which was a way of self reflection realizing what has actually helped me getting better not stressing about being social awkward anymore. Accepting that I am a loner. And being a loner isn’t a bad thing at all. It’s the same with “They say witch like it’s a bad thing.” Since I was a child already I preferred to stay in the own four walls with my Gameboy Advance than hanging out with friends out there. Not that I don’t love being outside. But when I decided to explore the nature I always went alone. To enjoy the silence within my head, listening to the singing birds and the chatting people. Being an observer. 

I used to hate myself for being that way. Thought I must be so boring that nobody wants to hang out with me. Until the day I found out what I truly enjoy and feel most comfortable with. And that is simply being with myself as I enjoy getting creative doing whatever I want without depending on anyone else around. Observing to collect new emotions and ideas to write down. 

Don’t feel bad for not having any or not many friends. Because you have yourself, forever and always being your best friend. The one who will teach you who you are. Showing you what you’re passionate about. Both from outside and inside. Giving you strength and confidence. Shaping your character. Never leaving you alone. And while this happens with time you will walk different paths of exploration where will people come into your life who share the same vibe with you. Everything begins with yourself. 

You need to build a castle in order to get seen. To attract souls with similar interests who notice the way you decorated its appearance. They become curious about you and that’s where opportunities begin. Again being a loner isn’t a bad thing. And it doesn’t mean you’re lonely. 

Society needs us in order to create a balance. It needs loners and observers to exhibit what happens as much as society needs individuality. Otherwise we all would be the same. It’s about discovering yourself and seeing what makes you special. 

Give yourself time and reflection. And if you ever need to talk I’m here for you. 😘💜